So whenever I'm drunk or tipsy (is that even how u spell it?), I think more randomly, more creatively, or more weird. I was at a bar and drinking myself because I decided it to do that on my own... the sports channel was on and that's also why I went to drink by myself. I watched basketball, football, and soccer. And I just... dislike my life so much more. I mean, I know that I have to make peace with the certain ability and limited power that my body is given, but I WANT TO PLAY BASKETBALL OR SOCCER OR EVEN FOOTBALL for my life. I found myself lack of talent and heart in school but I had my heart 99% on basketball and soccer. The other 1% is that I don't believe in myself because I'm this tiny little asian girl. I look at those players and I see their passion. I HAVE the kind of passion for basketball, but it just seems like this life-time and society and parents don't allow me to pursued in this field.
Ylber and one of my aunt (and i think even my dad) said to me that if I don't have my heart at school then just drop out or even take (a) year(s) of breaks...
All I want to do for my live is to play sports, professionally. I JUST want to do that. So badly...
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