5:15AM

I'm now sitting alone in my room at 5:15 in the morning. The weather is so nice these days in Toronto, I am in my wife-beater and A&F swimsuit with my windows open reading architecture lecture notes in this quiet hours. EVERYBODY IS SLEEPING is the reason why I always do my work so late. This kind of solitude is very nice especially in this kind of weather. It reminds me of being in Vancouver driving around in night time alone with my windows down and playing slow music, or sitting at Aubrery Elementary School's top of playground watching the whole Vancouver at night time alone or with Leo. FYI, Aubrery Elementary School and my old house were located at the top of mountain where you can almost see the entire Vancouver. The view wasn't much different than the view in my old room, but the only reason I would always there was because it felt so nice just letting the wind blew at you. So amigos, this is why my sleeping schedule has been upside down since the beginning of school year. 

Yesterday, Izzy visited me :D She didn't seem too happy somehow. I had a great time hanging out with her tho. Anyways, we walked on Bloor Street and checked out a new place for next year. That place would be my all-time dream place for the time being in school - a bachelor suit with patio in a luxury building located in the centre of downtown Toronto for a very pricy price.  I also found another place near school for $660/month included ALL utilities and FURNISHED. SUCH A GOOD DEAL but it's too cheap to be true....... plus the landlord is out of town so she is not able to show me the home.. (WTF). 

Here is the thing, I've always wanted to live by myself in a nice bachelor during university. However, recently I guess it's university and the friends around me influence me... The idea of living poor somehow comes to my mind. It IS the time when you get to experience living poor and not living by yourself because it's not like you are rising a family or we are "too young to live by yourself"...?? wtf, I don't get it. Crappy co-op student housing with shared washrooms, furnished, and all utilities for around $500~$600/month, or a bachelor suit with patio in a luxury building included all utilities except for internet and cable, and unfurnished for a pricy price but my mom is willing to afford.....?? Which one do I go for? 

I hate this but I'm going to talk to my mom about this. And like all the time, she will not give me any answers or suggestions, it's gonna be like we did not have this conversation at all. And then I'm gonna talk to my dad who is not paying for anything but would give me the crappiest suggestion ever because "saving on big things such as housing is better than saving on small things." And then my mom will get back to me with an answer later on that she did not come out with because my step-dad will get in the way like always, and I very much dislike his thought 90% of the time because I didn't grow up with him and the fact that "most daughters do not get alone with their step-dads." SO YUP! 

It's my life right?