I'm Drunk, but this is what I think right now

I wasted my time in y 1st year looking for and believing in signs. It was the 2 cars that almost bumped into me half an hour before Leo die THAT MADE me believe in signs. Well.. for those that don't know how Leo die, he was hit by a car.
I just had a conversation with my friends about "signs" and "god". I said I believe in signs, but Matt said "signs are everywhere" and then after that sentence a short semi-deep speech was followed of which I'm not going to get into that, because I'm drunk and his speech was not my point in this blog entry. MY POINT IS THAT... (on the way home I thought about all the stupid action that I made because I believed in signs) I WASTED THIS WHOLE TIME LOOKING FOR AND BELIEVING IN SIGNS, and because of the conversation that took place earlier, the past years all made sense! I was looking for signs to guide me through my life and because I believed signs they were really, literally, EVERYWHERE. It did not help me with my life. It did not guide me at all because if it did I would still not be lost in university, or in life. However, it might also be that I'm not patient enough to wait for the signs to prove themselves... Right now, I'm not taking that into my consideration other than I wasted my time and energy, instead of believing in myself, in my thought, and in my power and ability.

"God". I've always thought that "god" is for the weaks, for the excuses, and for the stupidities. I was so confident when my life was going well. For now, I don't want to talk about my whole system of belief (in god). Obviously, now I have doubts, but I am still very strong on my thought. It's too much to talk about for my semi-drunk-asian brain. I just want to go to bed.

Last but not least, I got my one-way ticket back to vancouver. Yes, it is one-way ticket. Vancouver, I hear ya. I'm coming home. 6 more days, and my mom has no idea.

GOLD!

WE GOT GOLD!! bilodeau!!!
This is so awesome! and it would be more awesome if I was back home...
But whatever I am going to make this reading break all worth it.
I am gonna... read books. That is right! I am going to read.
- An Introduction To Game Theory, written by an economic professor at U of T, who is blaire`s friend`s dad :O
- And On Stranger Tides, because the next movie of Pirates of Caribbean is based on this noval and I just really got into the movie series.

AND!
I`m going to paint my washroom. ALL RED with 3 horizontal black stripes going across the walls.

AND!
I`m going to study hard on MAT223 of which the midterm is on the 25th, also the major reason why I couldn`t go back to vancouver during reading break.

AND!
I just found out that I need min. GPA 3.0 and a min. of 2 years of work experiences to apply for MBA. ugh! How do I get 2 years of work experiences? and min GPA 3.0 is not going to get me into MBA. You know it, I know it.

Well, that's it so far, I don't have much to say besides the fact that I'm in Robarts right now tired and sick. Gonna head back to my new condo and eat my new cheesecake and sleep.

Take care everyone,
Emster

We Are The World 25

I'm glad I donated to Haiti. (Even tho it was with my mom's credit card)

http://www.perezhilton.com/tv/We_Are_The_World_25/?ptvid=3670b91a26dee
Music is so strong.






And I just watched the opening ceremony of Vancouver 2010. Rick Hansen and Steve Nash pretty much made it all worth it to spend those long ass 3 hours watching crappy opening ceremony. I mean... at the end one of the 4 sticks didn't even work?!?! ugh! Nevertheless, I still want to be there.... it's my home mang... I miss Vancouver. Shane Blackie went back.... I suppose to go back too>:(

and I'm sick......