A Business Deal

"I'm a business man, and you are my investment. So I need to make sure that I will get my profit, along with my share, back to my pocket."

If you are a business man, and I am your investment, then we are business partners. Then this is A business deal. You will not drop out and have all the right to say in this relationship. You will not tell me what to do from a 20-hours-plane-ride-away distant. We will make decisions together, decisions that will satisfy each side. And I will spend the minimum resources from my side, while I spend yours mostly, because it's A business deal, Dad.

This is the Feeling of Feeling Good

Remember her? Yes, her. The "Lady of Perfect Satisfaction" has satisfied me. I wrote about her and her ability of "bending in many different ways" got me a 78% on my 8-pages paper.

SEVENTY. EIGHT. PERCENT!!

The best mark I've ever received in the past 2 years.

If By the End of this Post You Can Tell Me What This Title is I will Buy You A Beer

I had the perfect title and materials to write for this post, but due to enough procrastination... I forgot. I forgot completely what I was going to write, so I'm just going to free write to see what I can come out with to entertain you sexy people.

First... (birds and rainbow and David Beckham in my mind singing and kicking a soccer ball), I... I..

Second, I give you a new intervention by Hiromi Ozaki, a graduate student of Royal College of Art, which brings WTF to a whole new level. It is a Menstruation Machine. It is a wearable metal suit that allows a man to "experience the painful bleeding of menstruation." This machine "releases blood stored in its reservoir over the course of a menstruation cycle, usually lasting about 5 days. It also has lower abdomen stimulating electrodes to mimic painful cramps." The perfect machine for J.

On a creativity level, it is kinda cool. On a revenging level, this might just be the best machine ever, ever, ever invented. But in the other hand, why would you put yourself through this? Can you use a tampon? Can you readjust the flow? Why does this exist? and WHY IS JAPANESE SO WEIRD?

I love it. If you still can't picture this in your mind, here it is. You're welcome.

Third, no third. I want to keep talking about this machine. Where can I get it? Who is willing to test on it? I want to read a review, and WHO CAN I PUT THIS ON TO?

By the way, Eminem's single feat. Rihanna - Love the Way You Lie - is finally coming out with its music video, which rumored to have Megan Fox and Dominic Monaghan starring. Sounds like a very intense music video... CAN'T WAIT to see!!

The End.

Start Time

3:50PM

3:50PM

3:50PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What kind of start time is that!! Do they organize students' start time base on their physical attractiveness?? THEN WHY DO I HAVE 3:50PM START TIME!! I thought it would not affect me but right now it's 10 mins before 3:50pm and I'm freaking out already about what if all the other students took all my courses!! Like, what if this one person has 3:40pm start time and get the last spot of some of my classes. Like, what if this person is somwhow related to koreans? I've never seen or heard anyone who is assigned a start time later than mine.

6 mins left.

I'm Getting Better At My Blog

Not only my english is improving, as I blog and as Blaire would say, I also discovered and changed the setting of my blog.

You sexy bitches and sexy dude bitches can now comment on my blog without a registered ID!! How exciting!! So exciting that I bold half of the sentence!! So now, feel free to express yourself to me with your trained critical thinking skills. As long as your comments are appropriate, and perhaps provide with your name, I'll be nice enough to leave them as they are and not throw a rock at you (if you are a boy).

Yay to all of you sexy and me!

The Most Important Checklist of Your Life by ASSU

For First Year Students:

- Seek out and join your Course Union.

- Check the exam schedule. Twice. (hahahah!! totally did that)

- Don't freak out. It's only first year. (thought that too)

For Second Year Students:

- Pick your POSt.

- Tell all your friends how much better U of T is than their school. (ugh YUP! did that last summer)

- Chart out your next two years' courses. (yeah..)

For Third Year Students:

- Realize that you would have a 4.0 GPA if you had gone to York. (HAHAHAHAH!! yes...)

- Start researching Grad programs instead of Med School. (did that last month, guys remember I showed you MMPA at U of T)

- Star thinking about reference letters.

For Fourth Year Students:

- Check and double-check to make sure you can graduate.

- Start planing your fifth year.

Oh-my-god, I picked up the Anti-Calender yesterday with Blaire and all these are SO true.

Facebook, Power-Hungry Bitch, and the End.

Here I am, procrastinating, not writing my paper. But in the other hand, I have something to complain, scratch that, I mean share with you.

First, it's how annoying facebook is. Like, the times when people change their relationship status and everybody is like "awww", "yeahhh", or "nice". Like, people you haven't seen in ages turn from beast to beauty and how do you know that, FACEBOOK. Or like, suddenly facebook tells you that your friend who sits beside you 12 hours a day to study together look like this, or this, or THIS!!

I CAN BARELY RECOGNIZE MY OWN FRIEND.

The water I drink and the water she drinks are obviously different, because whatever it is in my water makes my face look like ugly Betty ate her face. Which I came up with a solution... Fuck, I need a new water source. Or, to find a good surgeon. Or, not to study with her. Or, I can quit Facebook. Or, drink tons of beer till I don't remember this. Or, I can just stop caring about this. FYI, her name is Blaire (hi, Blaire).

Ok, on to the next one.

Second, this paper, that I need to start (due in 18 hours), needs to have too much information that my brain can possibly remember. There are just way too much questions, and way too much answers to fit into a 5-8 pages paper about this power-hungry bitch who holds a lot of grudges against other poor Chinese who are in my Chinese history textbook. I just need to make a decision on which information to talk about. Decision, decision, decision!

Third, there is no third. In an essay you suppose to have 3 claims, so I thought I should have a third. But there is no third. I'm usually not good at ending any post.

The End.

Update:: Blaire just admit she's also a power-hungry bitch.

GTL

I just did some Gym, Tan, and Laundry today, or known as GTL, feel like a guide. Wait, is it Guide? or Guido? Guida? I don't know.. I'm Chinese.

I didn't plan this out, it just happened...

Update:: my friend just confirmed to me that it's "Guido".

Update:: Speaking of GTL, I can't wait for Jersey Shore season 2 to come out. Time to laugh really hard by myself at my condo, and freeze my brain after some Chinese history paper.

My Web Will

We all know that tons of different companies/business men are making money by betting on others' lives. Like the time when Matthew Gordon told me about how you can sell your life insurance, or buy others' life insurances, in the states. Yes, it is legal in the states. But have you thought about making money by "deactivate, change, or transfer" other people's account like Facebook or Twitter after their death?

Yeah... digital world.

Mywebwill does exactly just that, for $9.99 a year! My webwill "allows you to make decisions about your online life after death. You can choose to deactivate, change or transfer you accounts like Twitter, Facebook or your blog. At the time of your death we perform your wishes." Like, HOLY COW, you genius. You genius because basically you are selling a service that you don't think you will do, ever, ever, ever. In other word, you are selling nothing. NOTHING. Except I don't think I would pay $9.99 a year just *in case* I die tomorrow but I would like you to know what I think about you. But in the other hand, it'd be totally cool to update my facebook status after my death, just to freak people out. Totally.

Emma Tsui just did a moon walk with Michael Jackson in Heaven. We literally walk to the moon, btw, he's fast.

Tanning

No, I do not use tanning bed.

I've been trying to tan, but whenever I'm not working the sky seems to be cloudy, or I'm sleeping. So I came up with a solution: Self tanner.

Haven't tried it yet but according to wikihow.com, self tanner is the only way to "tan" safely because "it's not really tanning at all." I don't want to describe this sentence as I am not a science student so if you are interested in that just check out the link :)

So I'm going to start next week, after my Chinese history paper, of course. By the way, Happy Canada day, y'all.

Wu Zhao - The First Female Emperor of China

Ok, I have to tell you this because I find it extremely funny and that I can't possibly write this in my essay. The book that I'm reading right now is about Wu Zhao, the first female emperor of China, who secretly killed her own infant daughter just to blame (and then kill) the empress while she was a consort, and then also secretly killed 2 of her sons (Crown Prince) when she was a empress. This power-hungry bitch also bore longstanding grudges against all who had slighted, attacked, or betrayed her. According to this book, she "commanded that the offending family's tombs to exhumed, their coffins smashed, and their bodies burned to ashes."

What the fuck is wrong with her?

Also, apparently, she was a "talent", meaning extremely beautiful, and people called her "Lady of Perfect Satisfaction". Translation: Whore. Or that she really gave extraordinary sex to her Emperor. But then... I mean... she looked like this

What kind of man would want to fuck her? or is it just me? But then this also happened in 670, but still... "Lady of Perfect Satisfaction"??!! OR!!! she used her power to force the scholars who writes the history to call her that, and that she wanted the future generations of chinese to know that she was extremely good at sex despite she looked like that. So in conclusion, after she got all those power and killed all those people, all she cared about was that people need to know that she was THAT good at sex. I'v heard bunch of insecure men, but this one right here was a really insecure woman. Or was she? I love history. I can't wait to find out. Time to keep reading.

Park

I met up with Blaire today, and then we went for Burger bar, and then we met up with Blaire's friends, Mario and Constance, and then we went to a park.

I went to a park.

There were bunch of dogs playing, on grass. I know there is probably nothing special about dogs playing at a park on grass, but it's my first time in 2 years that I went to a park with grass, after Leo died of course. There was sudden feeling that I wanted to throw a ball and yell "let's go Leo!!" I wanted to do that.

I went to a park.

Free Write

Right now I'm going to free write, so I'm going to make mistakes but mistakes don't exist in free write, so while you are reading this please keep in mind that I'm constantly typing.

I signed myself up on some workshop at the academic centre and I had the first class today, it is called "Combat Procrastination with Poetry". I got a lot out of this workshop and I'm glad that I signed up, and I got there on time, and I was the second person to get there. So I was proud of myself on that because the last time I got on time to any sort of meeting being the top people I'm pretty sure I don't remember when that was. And there are 4 rules of procrastination, to stop procrastination, a) always show up (it is the adult secret, in fact, 80% of my life is always going to be about "showing up") b) tell the truth c) don't get caught up on the outcome, and d) when it's over let it go. I'm going to start of my life from now on following those 4 rules, because as cliche as Nike commercial is it IS all about "just do it". There are also couple of procrastination and time management strategies, a couple I meant like 10 of them, and I'm going to start off with two for now. 1) Set a goal: always set a goal while I study, to set a goal for the study period, what I need to know and understand in that given time, and 2) do the work: divide the work into smaller tasks and explore finding systems while I do them. As easy and simple as they are, people tend to forget them, we stop thinking sometimes when life gets easy, aka high school and being little smart for Canadian high school system and being spoiled and all that. In this workshop we were asked to write a free write and a poem and then a free write, each under 5 mins, and I was shocked for the stuff that I wrote down and how much I realized and see about procrastination; procrastination hurts my soul. I don't want procrastination to be one of my characteristic, and I don't want Emma Tsui to be defined as slack, crack, slacker, procraste, lacker, and I certainly don't want to be in procrasti-nation, the nation where everything is easy and they take me nowhere in life. I felt guilty when I procrast. So period. There, I have it. Just do it.

Tomorrow, there is one more workshop, and it's called Motivation. I'll let you know what I learn.

Time that I took to write this: around 10 mins.

June 2010

Awesome.

NBA LA Lakers V.S. Boston Celtics at the final 2010

AND THEN

there is World Cup. IT'S AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!

beat all the depression given by U of T.

Song That I'm Obsessed Right NOW.... JET - ARE YOU GONNA BE MY GIRL

"Never Say Never" is Overrated [Edited]

To Emma:

What if you subtract "never" from sentences such as "I'll never fail", "I'll never get lost", or "I'll never leave you"? If you put this phrase into negative sentence such as "I'll never suicide", but "never say never", you will subtract "never" from that sentence, and the whole sentence will be "I'll suicide." Interesting...

Therefore, I'm putting "never" into one certain negative sentence; I will "never" fail this deeply again. In my opinion, you should fully use this word in all the negative sentences.

Hopefully, you completely understand this word "never" by now, and you just have to use it well to succeed.

Sincerely,

Thinker.

How Much I Don't Want This

I really didn't know how much I really don't want this, it made me miserable, until the letter came. Inside of me, I was relieved. I thought there is a perfect excuse for me to get out of this situation, but, in the other hand, I haven't fought back and haven't tried enough. That's what gets me staying, and there are my friends. My friends are awesome.

So Far In This Uni Life

First year, in this school, I was sleeping. Second year, I woke up and I got lost. Third year, I'm making up the mistakes that I've done in the past 2 years, plus the little negative hobbies that I've built up during high school.

Now I don't have time left to do the things that I adore. Don't be like me.

I will improve. I can do it.

Ok... So, I Have No Topic.

Crap.

Crap is right. Crap is that I don't like schooling. Crap is that nothing in school motivated me for doing school. Crap is that this is the 7th lecture and I'm starting to get sick of it and I can't sit in the room and listen. Crap is that I'm writing my blog during the lecture. Crap is that I really need this degree from this school. Crap is that the word "crap" can't possibly used for the title because that's just very unprofessional, and CRAP! I'M. IN. UNIVERSITY. OF. TORONTO.

Crap!

Mixes:)

Numb/Encore/A Star Is Born/99 Problems by DJthought

It's one of my favorite mixes that I made (I mean "my favorite mix", is really what I mean..). I'd like you guys, if anyone reading this, take 4 mins and listen to it. Let me know what you think would be very appreciated!!

Huh.

Drake - Find Your Love

Work, Failure, And Of Course There'd Be Disappointment. Oh! And The Courgar.

So I fucked up horribly this academic year.

I find some people are extremely lucky that they have found what they like and good at. Some people can do all those things because they can do and the fact that they can't do. They can do economics, math, or commerce, or whatever career that their Asian parents approve. But they can't do their feelings. They don't know what they are doing, and they certainly have no idea if they like it or not. They, just, do it, like they have no feelings whatsoever. So I was sort of like one of them.

One of the things that I found about myself is that I can't do what my parents want me to do. My dad wants me to do computer science. In the other hand, my mom wants me to do architectures or engineers or economics or mathematics. If I told them that I'm going to try East Asian Studies, I WILL get murdered. Wait, hold that thought, I will get cut off, AND THEN get murdered. Because maybe I really don't enjoy doing linear algebra at the beginning, and maybe all this time I've told myself that I like math only because I used to be good at math.

BUT, I enjoy econimics? do I? I think I do. So even if it's going to take me 5 times to get into that program, I will do it. Because I like it, I enjoy it, and I start learning to put time in it. So there is that.

So the disappointment. Sigh. You could say that I lost/wasted/fucked up 2 years of time and money. At least that was how I look at it. Or you could say that I might just redefined success? I don't know. We'll see.

Oh and the cougar that I mentioned in the title. Yes, there was this mid-aged white woman (cougar) flirting at me during work. Well, I didn't flirt back. So then she got pissed at me and you could tell she's pissed. LOL

A Change Is Gonna Come

"[...] nothing remains the same for long. We either adopt to change, or we get left behind."

- Grey's Anatomy, S04E01

It's So Frustrated, the hate/love for April and May, And Still Frustrated.

It is so frustrated. The whole thing about growing up, responsibilities, adulthood and shit. Mid-life crisis? I hope not. First, it's the growing up. Growing up means that you have to look into what you are paying for, for example, the fucking tuition. So each course is $1033 or something like that for a credit. But somehow, the total comes to $1160.00 something. So I'm paying for fucking tuition, fucking system fees, and fucking....?? dental?? insurance?? like what the fuck I don't understand the whole "tuition" thing. I know one thing for sure is that the tuition included something like dental care but how do I use it? and I don't use it at all, I would LIKE IT BACK, which leads to responsibilities because I'm responsible to know what that $1160.00 is all about. Responsibilities mean everything. You are responsible for your own time management, for your own failure, etc.. There are so many hidden responsibilities, I can barely breath. And you know what is blocking my airway? The adulthood. I AM 20. I can no longer quit things that I do, like I used to quit on everything. I quit on Arts, which I used to be good at. I quit on soccer, which I adore. I quit on so many fucking things but one thing I'm a little proud of myself is that I stick with math. Not many people stick with math, so I thought I have pretty good odds, but, no, U of T told me to fuck myself. Well, I'm sticking with math this time around, and my new hobby - DJ. So there is that.

I hate April. I hate April because it's the time of awkwardness because it's my mom's birthday because I used to get presents or write my mom poems because I am good at writing poetries and because I didn't really want to do all these things but I still did because that woman gave birth to me and raised me up but we had weird/wtf relationship because she IS the woman that I would not want to meet or know ever in my life if she wasn't my mother. And now you can probably tell why I also hate May. It's the fucking mother's day weekend. I hate it. Ever since I can remember, I never understood why holidays like Mother's day exist. When I was young I thought all the mothers are the same. I thought they were all witches.

Now, I'm going to tell you the love side of April and May. I love April and May. I love April and May because every night, or at least, every other night there are sports games. YESSSSSSS!! SPORTS GAMES!!! I can stay at home all April and May because of the PLAYOFFS!!! Playoffs are so important that I'm going to bold that word. PLAYOFFS. Playoffs keep me happy because they are so intense, especially when Vancouver Canucks of NHL and Boston Celtics of NBA are playing. LOVE THEM!!

Now, more frustrations. I procrastinate. When I procrastinate, I think that I need to do all those things when I don't procrastinate. Then, when I don't procrastinate, I ask myself why I'm doing all those things, which leads me to procrastinate again because I suddenly forget the purpose of doing all those things. How frustrated is this? huh? I HAVEN'T TOUCH MY TURNTABLES IN 2 WEEKS SINCE I FINISHED FINALS. HOW DARE I? I is bad, I is going to get more disappointment if I don't get my ass together soon. So you better get your ass together and do your shit because if you don't you will be this quitter that you won't even respect yourself.

Period.

Jersey Shore Is Unbelievably Stupid

and yet I'm watching it!!

Well, this is what my life has been like for the past 3 days after exams... I swear to god it's my daily routine.

Sleep, eat, and Jersey Shore.


and my turntables and serato are being such an asshole, everything is plugged properly and yet it's not working like the way they should work! ugh piss me off...

Hi Blogger

I've been busy with school and I finally got my stupid and full-with-greedy-demanding-customers job back two weeks ago. And I'm typing with my iTouch and it's autocorrection for the words is amazing but the touch pad is annoying as fuck. Whatever. I'm not gonna be the girl who blogs/complains about the touch pad or the crappy job.

Anywhooooooo

I'm at illanko's final exam prep session for linear algebra, but it is so boring that I can't focus. So instead, I'm here on blogger. But I mean, linear algebra is really, REALLY hard.

Let Me Give A Try Of This..

http://soundcloud.com/djthought

This is the link to my page where I upload my recent mixes.. or all of my mixes. I don't know. But bookmark it :)

Jam Session

On Friday night, Jarry and Said came over, and we had our first jam session. It went pretty well. We came out ideas and try them and the outcome was pretty amazing. We had 2 mixes. I put them together but the boys pretty much came out with the ideas and they had a lot of ideas.

The first one is Over V.S. A Milli, and the second one is Roc Boy V.S. Baby By Me. If you have time listen to them, pretty amazing.

Over V.S. A Milli

Roc Boy V.S. Baby By Me

that's it for now, have a good weekend:)

ems

In VB's Closet And P.S.S.S.S.S.S.S.S.S.S....

(image from http://victoriabeckham-jenna.blogspot.com)

Victoria Beckham and her grey zipped skinny jeans and Louboutins.... SO HAWTTT!! (excluded the fur tho... definitely not the fur. yuk)

The one she wore on March 26th is the hottest combinations out of the 4, I think.

I have no idea when it is that I started to adore skinny jeans. I love my black Club Monaco's skinny jeans, what I love about it even more is that the colour black faded away so it's pretty much a pair of grey skinny jeans, and the fade is AWESOME. I absolutely adore them. And I also really like those light light blue skinny jeans and maybe even a white one, although I don't have any of them. Remember I used to wear Ed Hardy and baggy jeans and all getto and stuff? Time to move on!

ems

p.s. I'm going to treat myself a new jacket from adidas original (david beckham collection) if I get the mark that I desire, which I'll know by next week.

p.s.s I'm going to treat myself a nice new pair of black/grey/light light blue skinny jeans if I do good on my ECO100 final (worth 50%)

p.s.s.s. I'm going to treat myself a new dress shirt if I do good on my MAT223 final (worth 50%)

p.s.s.s.s. And If I didn't do good on neither of them, 2 courses in the summer school and be depressed and disappointing in myself. There is no better punishment than getting disappointed in myself. Deal.

A Weekend of Summer Degree

22

23

24

16

I will be doing tons of work in that degree, at ma balcony.

And then I will be like

HELL YES!

And then I will be like "oh yes"

the exams will be like "oh no"

then I will be like "she did"

"she did just rape you"

And then I will have my happy summer break.

That's exactly what will happen.

I guarantee.

nicoleisbetter.com

"God technology complicates sex. Actually no, you know what really complicates sex? The fucking iPhone. The fucking iPhone and its fucking auto correcting of words for no good reason. Like, stop changing “fuck” to “duck.” Have I ever typed duck? No seriously, when’s the last time I ever, ever texted ANYONE about ducks? Never, that’s when. I’ve never texted anyone about ducks. But do you know which word I do use in almost every single text? Fuck. Do you hear that, iPhone? Fuck is my favorite word and you clearly need to just get your shit together already and start recognizing that I like fucking more than I like water birds. And, actually, while we’re having it out, I’d like to also request that you stop anticipating my needs and prematurely inserting the word “Bette” when all I’m trying to do is type “better.” I mean, who the fuck is Bette? There isn’t anyone in my contacts named Bette. In fact, I’m pretty sure there hasn’t even been a single person in the world named Bette since like 1957.

Which makes me think that the guy who programmed the iPhone has an enormous crush on some old chick named Bette. Or maybe his mom’s name is Bette. Or maybe he’s really old and back in college he used to get head from this super hot chick named Bette until she left him for a football player with a really nice car and he’s pissed as hell because he hasn’t had it that good since then and now he’s married and bitter because he spends his days programming iPhones and doesn’t even have a good blowjob to come home to and the crazy thing is that his wife totally *would* blow him, but he never bothers to go down on her first and has absolutely no idea that her clit is shaped like a wishbone or that all clits are shaped like wishbones which leaves him working for Apple and her wildly unsatisfied in the pants and me with an iPhone that thinks I want to duck Bette."

- www.nicoleisbetter.com

It was 3 in the morning when I had a huge headache which prevented me from falling asleep, and this girl, THIS GIRL, made me laugh like a motherfucker at 3 in the morning.

Dreams

You know when you wake up but still in the bed and still feeling sleepy and then you fall asleep? Yup, I do that religiously, especially in the morning/afternoon. And then after you fall asleep from previous sleep, you'd dream. Dream about the things you suppose to do today/right now, and in the dream you'd be happy because you are doing the things you suppose to do, but you are actually not doing anything except for sleeping. And never had that kind of dreams about "hey you lazy ass WAKE UP! you have actual things to do, like STUDYING"........ So yup, and now it's 3pm. I woke up at 10am.

I have exactly 25 hours till my ECO100 exam... minus transporting from home to Robarts and Robarts to home, minus sleeping, minus eating, minus showering, minus breaks, and minus a tutorial to go. That'd approximately give me..... 12 hours to study for the materials that I already know but not really well.

And I'm refusing to wash my 3-days old, soon-to-be-4-days-old, dishes. Yuk..

And I can't seem to get rid of my minor headache except having advils, or sleep.

And no mixing and turntables till.... :'(

Fuck.

Going In Life Is Un-thinkable

Another mix.

Drake - Going in for life

+

Alicia Keys - Un-thinkable

=

DJThought - Going In Life Is Un-Thinkable

Jarry texted me this idea this morning. Good idea. When I find time I want to fix this song up more.

Night.

Get On The Train

Everybody has the crack in them, of which made them that way. The weakness, the thing that they are not telling you, the dark story, you know. The motivation every morning that makes you step out of your door the way you step out of your door.

I have the crack in me, the weakness, the things that I'm not telling you, and the dark story, you know, but I don't have the motivation every morning. In fact, I'm not quite sure what makes me step out of my door the way I do. Sometimes I don't even know the purpose why I step outta my door.

I need to get on the train. The train that makes me motivated every morning, the train that makes me feel strongly about the reason why I am stepping out of my door today, the train that gets me on the same page as others.

But first, I need to find that train. I have to find that invisible train.

Chuck Bass

Chuck Bass.

Love the Hair, the black and white, and the expression.

Hair And No Hair?

I have an issue with hair, not gonna lie to ya. I'm not quite sure if I like it or hate it because I like my hair looking nice sometimes, and then there are times where I just absolutely hate having hair on my head. That's why sometimes I feel like shaving it all off. And I also hate having long hair, that's just too complicated for me. I believe this issue is one of my many reasons why I'm so not a chick... Anyways, you probably couldn't care less about my hair issue because this is not the thesis of this entry.

My thesis is that... I like to make fun of Geoff's hair. (you can argue with that, and it's not a fact. so it's a thesis)
I think that geoff is going bald. Don't tell him I said that tho, he's gonna feel really bad. I remember that I made fun of his chest hair last year in rez. LOL! Geoff def had a lot more hair when he was in high school, but now he's always in his hat. And ugh that hat... he needs to change it... or take it off. I think hats can make a man go bald. no kidding.. your head needs air, so does your hair. I wear a hat a lot but that's only because I hate hair, and I can't shave it off because I have a weird head shape. If geoff's really going bold, there are always transplants, from his chest hair....(LMAO) what the fuck I'm so mean.

p.s. what do y'all think of my mixes?

5AM Mix

I finished the work that I required to do on monday. So Tuesday, which is right now, I started at 3:30am to do this mix because these 2 songs suddenly appeared in my mind. Keep in mind, this is just draft, the timing is still awkward and it's 5:40am right now... time to sleep.

Paper Plane V.S. Imma Be

DjThink V.S. DjThought

DjThink -> Vote: Me, Archis, Tiff, Julia = 4
DjThought -> Vote: Geoff, Jarry, Blaire, Lily, Torin, Lee = 6
DjThinker -> Vote: 0 -> outta the question

"think only shows that you are thinking at that certain time, but thought shows people that you all ready thought about your music." - said geoff

"thought is profound" - EVERYBODY ELSE

any more vote?

Forever Remix#1

Che-che-check it OUT!

name: forever
artists: drake ft. kanye west & lil wayne & eminem
remix by DJthought... DJthink? (havent decided yet..)

My 1st Recorded Remix By... ME!!!

Robin Thicke - Eleveta ft. Kid Cudi Remix 1

What do you think?? what do you think??? I did this one this morning.

I will start making more mixes and improve the mixes and upload them :)

Hugh Jackman

so cute....!!!

Crazy Woman

AHAHHAHA!!

And personally, I think this telephone music video is genius.

DJ Name [edited]

I need a DJ name. Well, one of my tasks from my DJ instructor, Lee, is to find a real DJ name for me. I know my twitter is "DJemster", but that's just for fun. Emster sounds like hamster. Why Ylber... why???? Anyways, so I came up with DJthink, or DJthinker. The whole point of my name is that I want to get as many young adults and kids as I can to "think". Many of them don't. It pisses me off, and it is very disappointed. "Think" before they judge others, "think" non-stereotype, "think" open-minded, "think" about others, "think" selfish-less, "think" for the animals, and etc... And "thinker" is to show that I am a thinker, I think before I do (spinning the turntables). However, Lee thinks DJthought is better. "something profound, something Confucius would say". If my name is DJthought, I am no longer getting people to "think", but to have their own "thoughts", which e-v-e-r-y-b-o-d-y has own "thoughts"

What do y'all think?

Think? thinker? or thought?

I'm going with "DJthink". I'm def going with "think" because my dad just said something "[...] if you ever think about your kids...."

The Assumption Song

This is hilarious! (thanks to lily)

*I do not own this video, just sharing with ya*

Night

Cleaning

I have been, literally, cleaning and nothing else 2 days straight. I'm getting really obsess at cleaning now... like a housewife.. or my mom. This needs to stop. No more major cleaning till April 16th! By the way, I will be done on the 16th of April :P Jealous? yeah. If I were you I would be too.

Tomorrow: DO MAT223 + ECO100, PRACTICE DJ, AND BLOG SOME MORE.

Bedtime. Night.

Wait.. I saw a golden retriever today. He came to me and I pet him, in the subway. I've never talked about dogs other than Leo. But I saw one today, and everytime I see one it just reminds me of how much I misses Leo. Screw all other type of cute and different dogs, the next dog I have he/she will be a golden retriever because that's me. And she/he will be named as either "junior" (as leo junior), "princess/prince", or "jo" (sorry joanne.. i really like the name JO...).


Now, BEDTIME. Night.

It's Raining =)

Love the rain. Feels like home. Definitely feels like home

That's Called Art!

I love this, LOVE IT, LOVE IT, LOVE IT!!! <3>

love everything about this video, the concept, THE CHOREOGRAPHY, the mixes, the characters, the fashion, the lines, and etc...

"I told you she doesn't have a dick"

"That's too bad"

you boys just got pwned

I'm going to get my ass to studio soon. I miss dancing.

So This Whole Thing About Friendship...

I hate filthy rich chinese people whom are not even that rich. I don't know much about filthy rich white people because I've never really met one I guess. But I've seen and met a lot of filthy rich chinese people. One of my friends is from a filthy rich chinese family. We've been friends for quite a while (and we hung out a lot) but we are from totally 2 different worlds. Here is the story, she's in grade 12 right now and she has spring break right now and she's in toronto right now and we agreed that we will meet up when she's in toronto and that I'll text her when I get back to toronto. And so I texted her twice and got no reply (I know I used a lot of "and" here... not the proper grammar that a university student should be using but just image that I'm talking right now). And then I facebook her twice asking her to reply my text and she was like "hi emma... what's up?" TWICE! Like seriously, if you don't want to hang out with me the least you can do is to reply me and make up a lie like "ohh sorry I can't hang out this time because I'm busy with my family". NO REPLY WHATSOEVER? seriously? SERIOUSLY? and act like you've never recieved my texts or forget that we've agreed to hang out. This happened SO MANY TIMES already! I fucking caught you went snowboarding with you brothers and you said you'd text me when you go in december when I went snowboarding with my brother and my friend. You are so low. so low. Good luck with your life, buddy. And for your information, I guarantee, GUARANTEE, you that you are not more mature than me.

I'm done. I feel a lot better now.. phew.

Next step: never ever get mad about her. It's completely pointless.

Why'd I leave You?

Vancouver. You are a decent pleasure every time. I'll be home soon.

xoxo Emster

below are the pictures from my olympics vacation. You may find the rest of the pictures from my album on facebook.

"[...] patriotism and pride was already there. Canada was, simply, just waiting for a chance to show it."

- Stephen Harper

p.s. I just put a huge amount of salt into a cup of cold water and snored it with my nose.... eww.. but it felt great. Now I don't have running nose or nasal congestion anymore. I'm sick.

Another Motivation

"Curiosity: it's the most powerful thing you own. Imagination: is a force that can actually manifest a reality. And the respect of your team is more important than all the morals in the world. Oh and Failure is an option, but fear is not."
- James Cameron

I had to repeat the last bit of the video several times to tried to understand what he meant by "failure is an option". Now, I still can't really understand what he meant. Has he never failed? If you have any idea or thought about this video or this quote, please comment on this and share with me. I'd really appreciate it:)

p.s. you don't have to have an account to leave a comment.

History

This is for the Canadian olympians

"(chores)Now that all the smoke is gone

and the battle's finally won

victory is finally ours

history so long, so long, so long, so long

in search of victory she keeps saluting me

if only we can be together momentarily

we can make love and make history

why won't you visit me?

until she visit me I'll be stuck with her sister

her name is defeat, she gives me agony

so much agony, she brings me so much pain

so much misery like missing your last shot

and falling to your knees as the crowd screams

for the other team, I practiced so hard for this moment

victory don't leave, I know what this means

I'm stuck in this routine, whole new different day

the same old thing

all I got is dreams, nobody else can see

nobody else believes, nobody else but me

where are you victory? I need you desperately

not just for the moment to make history

(chores)

so now I'm flirting with death, hustling like a G

while victory wasn't watching took chances repeatedly

as a teenage boy before acne

before I got proactive I couldn't face she

I just threw on my hoody and headed to the street

I swear I met success, we lived together shortly

now success was like lust, she's good to the touch

she's good for the moment but she's never enough

everybody's had her, she's nothing like V

but success is all I got, unfortunately

but I'm burning down the block

hoping in and out of V

but something tells me that there's much more to see

before I get killed 'cause I can't get robbed

so before me, success and death menage

I gotta get lost, I gotta find V

we gotta be together to make history

(chores)

now history is mine, it taste so sweat

she's my trophy wife, your coming with me

we'll have a baby who stutters repeatedly

we'll name his history, he'll repeat after me

he's my legacy, son I'm a hard work

future of my past, he'll explain who I be

Rank me among the greats, either 1, 2, or 3

if I ain't number one then I failed you victory

ain't in it for the fame that dies in within weeks

ain't in it for the money, can't take me when you leave

I wanna be remembered long after you breathe

long after I'm gone, long after I breathe

I leave all I am in the hands of history

that's my last will, testimony

this is much more than a song, it's a baby shower

I've been waiting for this hour, HISTORY YOU'RE OURS."

- Jay-Z

respect. To jay, the canadian olympians, and to all the canadian whom were on Granville St, Vancouver, Robson St, Vancouver, and all over Canada, and whom stand by our athletes.

14 Golds, 7 Silvers, and 5 Bronzes. One Proud Country.

Vancouver is WonderFULL

Na na na nothing on you
they got nothing you babe
na na na nothing on you
they might say hi
and i might say hey
but you shouldn't worry
about what they said
because they got nothing on you babe
-B.o.B

that's for vancouver

Right now, I'm at my mom's balcony, 23rd floor. And the sun is shining down on me. It is as warm as 15 degree C. In the other word, it is amazing. So I camwhore a bit. It's a must. (and I uploaded 3 blog entries today)

Have a good day, everyone. or at least try to...
Emster :)

A Lot of Motivation and Inspiration..

A lot of motivation and inspiration comes from songs, lyrics, and other people's blogs. One of the few reasons for me to get my ass outta bed is that I want to blog it. I want to write something on my blog, and after that I'd be on the chair and in front of the table, and then I'd be like "what the hell.. I'm here already, might as well". AND THEN I do work. As for now, I'm listening to "Nothing on you" by B.o.B ft. Bruno Mars at my mom's 23rd floor balcony in Vancouver, BC, where the weather has its sun shining down on me and I can barely see the screen, and it's warm enough to just wear a t-shirt. That might just made a few people be envy of me. :P

So much relaxation, I sacrifice none, comparing to Geoff and Torin. They are both from B.C., but due to being an engineer at U of T they have tons of works that they can't possibly drop it off for a week and come back to join the live pride. I am not complaining that my marks are bad, I'm not complaining that I dropped whole bunch of courses and now left me 2, and I'm certainly not complaining that it will take me at least 5 years to complete a bachelor degree, because I get to come back to Vancouver so often. As often as 5 times a year. Bottom line is, I am a bad worker. My brain hasn't clicked yet... it hasn't. At least that's what I tell myself.

I did bring some work back with me. ECO100 to read, MAT223 to understand, and a Sarato with one mixer to put songs together. I'll do them. I tell myself. But it seems like I just, somehow, got the balls to not do them. WHERE IS MY MOTIVATION AT?

Vancouver is Awesome.

I Love Lily

So here is a long conversation that I had with Lily (my roommate from last year at rez), we were discussing about this guy named.. let's just call him "J" here, who is always so depressed and blue and emo and all that. He is such a whiney little boy, but I'm a little worried about him. Just saying.

[02/03/10 10:46:27 PM] Emma Tsui: sorry i hung up on you i was on skype with julia
[02/03/10 10:46:39 PM] Emma Tsui: but call me later if u want :)
[02/03/10 10:47:50 PM] Lily Qiu: nah, i'm gonna do some work. talk to you soon time!!!
[02/03/10 10:47:57 PM] Emma Tsui: alrightty
[02/03/10 10:47:59 PM] Emma Tsui: btw
[02/03/10 10:48:08 PM] Emma Tsui: check out J's facebook status
[02/03/10 10:48:12 PM] Lily Qiu: ...
[02/03/10 10:48:13 PM] Emma Tsui: i think he's gonna kill himself
[02/03/10 10:48:16 PM] Emma Tsui: no joke
[02/03/10 10:48:29 PM] Lily Qiu: he's done that like 70 times
[02/03/10 10:48:30 PM] Lily Qiu: i dunno
[02/03/10 10:48:33 PM] Lily Qiu: i think he's just frustrated
[02/03/10 10:48:35 PM] Emma Tsui: lol
[02/03/10 10:48:39 PM] Lily Qiu: and always puts it on his facebook
[02/03/10 10:48:41 PM] Lily Qiu: but seriously
[02/03/10 10:48:56 PM] Lily Qiu: if i was going to kill myself, i definiely wouldn't put it on fucking facebook
[02/03/10 10:49:04 PM] Emma Tsui: what if we, people, see those all the time, and then there would be this time, that he actually kills himself?
[02/03/10 10:49:16 PM] Emma Tsui: lol true say
[02/03/10 10:49:35 PM] Lily Qiu: i dunno????? I mean he is obviously upset all the time. i dunno!
[02/03/10 10:49:46 PM] Emma Tsui: okay... go study
[02/03/10 10:49:47 PM] Emma Tsui: tata
[02/03/10 10:50:36 PM] Emma Tsui: what if he somehow bought a gun and start shooting in the campus like that vagina tech.....
[02/03/10 10:50:45 PM] Lily Qiu: YOU JUST SAID VAGINA TECH
[02/03/10 10:50:53 PM] Emma Tsui: lol
[02/03/10 10:50:54 PM] Lily Qiu: haahahahhah EMMA !!!!
[02/03/10 10:50:54 PM] Emma Tsui: i did
[02/03/10 10:50:57 PM] Emma Tsui: AHAHAHAHAAHA
[02/03/10 10:51:03 PM] Emma Tsui: omg...
[02/03/10 10:51:11 PM] Lily Qiu: WHAT DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT s ACTUALLY CALLED????
[02/03/10 10:51:18 PM] Emma Tsui: yes
[02/03/10 10:51:21 PM] Emma Tsui: i cant spell it out tho
[02/03/10 10:51:26 PM] Lily Qiu: please tell me you haven't been calling it vagina tech this whole time
[02/03/10 10:51:29 PM] Lily Qiu: hahahahahahha ahahha
[02/03/10 10:51:31 PM] Emma Tsui: no i havent
[02/03/10 10:51:35 PM] Emma Tsui: i just couldnt spell it out
[02/03/10 10:51:37 PM] Lily Qiu: hahahahah it's virginia
[02/03/10 10:51:39 PM] Emma Tsui: how do u spell it?
[02/03/10 10:51:40 PM] Emma Tsui: right
[02/03/10 10:51:46 PM] Emma Tsui: they look similar
[02/03/10 10:51:52 PM] Emma Tsui: virginia tech
[02/03/10 10:52:46 PM] Lily Qiu: hahahaahahhahhhah ahahha i know what you meant
[02/03/10 10:52:59 PM] Lily Qiu: but it's just funny cause there is definitely no school called vagina tech
[02/03/10 10:53:24 PM] Emma Tsui: sometimes i laugh at my own fobbiness
[02/03/10 10:53:41 PM] Emma Tsui: anyways, what if he starts shooting in campus? with his gun...!
[02/03/10 10:53:54 PM] Emma Tsui: that's what the shooter from virginia tech was like, wasnt he?
[02/03/10 10:54:12 PM] Lily Qiu: yeah, it was actually
[02/03/10 10:54:17 PM] Lily Qiu: pretty sure he was korean too
[02/03/10 10:54:20 PM] Emma Tsui: yeah
[02/03/10 10:54:25 PM] Lily Qiu: i dunno man, J is not a very vicious person
[02/03/10 10:54:28 PM] Lily Qiu: like he's very mil mannered
[02/03/10 10:54:29 PM] Lily Qiu: !!!
[02/03/10 10:54:30 PM] Emma Tsui: pretty sure he had long hair with glasses too
[02/03/10 10:54:37 PM] Lily Qiu: he takes pictures of mangos and chocolate and cupcakes
[02/03/10 10:54:43 PM] Lily Qiu: doesn't seem to be like a person who'd tote around a gun
[02/03/10 10:54:46 PM] Emma Tsui: yes he does
[02/03/10 10:54:46 PM] Lily Qiu: and shoot people
[02/03/10 10:54:48 PM] Lily Qiu: i'm just saying
[02/03/10 10:54:58 PM] Emma Tsui: yes that's true
[02/03/10 10:55:12 PM] Emma Tsui: well okay.. if this actually happen dont say i didnt mention it
[02/03/10 10:55:27 PM] Emma Tsui: i thinks he needs help, therapy or something
[02/03/10 10:55:59 PM] Lily Qiu: well by that time i might possibly be dead but we'll see
[02/03/10 10:56:08 PM] Emma Tsui: or maybe i should just show up in his face and tell him i dropped bunch of courses and now i only hav 2 courses and still not doing so well.
[02/03/10 10:56:15 PM] Emma Tsui: LILY!
[02/03/10 10:56:22 PM] Lily Qiu: hahah sorry
[02/03/10 10:56:31 PM] Lily Qiu: but anyways, he's just fucking frustrated that he's not getting good marks
[02/03/10 10:56:41 PM] Lily Qiu: like fuck, this shit is always on his status
[02/03/10 10:56:50 PM] Emma Tsui: pretty sure 80% of the students are not getting the marks that they desire
[02/03/10 10:56:54 PM] Lily Qiu: i'm not trying to dismiss it, but it's know like it was ME who said this
[02/03/10 10:57:00 PM] Lily Qiu: everybody knows he'a whiney little baby!
[02/03/10 10:57:06 PM] Emma Tsui: i know!!
[02/03/10 10:58:23 PM] Emma Tsui: what if it was like... he doesnt know he whines so much, and he just thinks that he tells his feeling btu nobody seems to care about him.
[02/03/10 10:58:42 PM] Emma Tsui: i mean,,, he's one of the biggest pussy i've ever seen... but he might not get that
[02/03/10 10:58:51 PM] Lily Qiu: how are you having this very active conversation with me and also talking to julia??? hahah
[02/03/10 10:59:01 PM] Emma Tsui: no i'm not talk to julia anymore
[02/03/10 10:59:05 PM] Lily Qiu: OH hahahahaha
[02/03/10 10:59:08 PM] Lily Qiu: i was gonna say
[02/03/10 10:59:20 PM] Emma Tsui: julia is a little tired of the world so i dont wanna bother her
[02/03/10 10:59:50 PM] Lily Qiu: ooooooh, bummer :(
[02/03/10 10:59:54 PM] Lily Qiu: just like J
[02/03/10 10:59:57 PM] Emma Tsui: lol
[02/03/10 10:59:59 PM] Lily Qiu: jxx xxxx hahah jxx XXXX
[02/03/10 11:00:02 PM] Lily Qiu: fuck, i dunno
[02/03/10 11:00:08 PM] Lily Qiu: he's depressed all the time it seems
[02/03/10 11:00:10 PM] Lily Qiu: you know what
[02/03/10 11:00:13 PM] Emma Tsui: yeah
[02/03/10 11:00:17 PM] Emma Tsui: i think i should tell ylber
[02/03/10 11:00:21 PM] Lily Qiu: i think his ideal job would be to travel the world and eat and be a food critic
[02/03/10 11:00:28 PM] Emma Tsui: LOL
[02/03/10 11:00:35 PM] Lily Qiu: NO, i'm actually not kidding
[02/03/10 11:00:38 PM] Lily Qiu: he would fucking love that!
[02/03/10 11:00:38 PM] Lily Qiu: he loves food@
[02/03/10 11:00:42 PM] Emma Tsui: then wtf is he doing in school
[02/03/10 11:00:45 PM] Lily Qiu: he loves taking pictures of food!
[02/03/10 11:00:49 PM] Emma Tsui: he does
[02/03/10 11:00:53 PM] Lily Qiu: well, i mean, typical asian parents probably, making him go through school
[02/03/10 11:01:09 PM] Emma Tsui: then study food or something
[02/03/10 11:01:20 PM] Lily Qiu: i bet you anything that if he gets through school and does all this shit, and SOMEHOW GROWS THE BALLS, he's gonna drop it all and go to france to eat croissants all day
[02/03/10 11:01:40 PM] Emma Tsui: AHAHAHAAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[02/03/10 11:01:44 PM] Emma Tsui: HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA
[02/03/10 11:01:47 PM] Emma Tsui: LILY!
[02/03/10 11:02:11 PM] Emma Tsui: i just choked, laughing and eating
[02/03/10 11:02:57 PM] Lily Qiu: hahaha HE WOULD BE SO MUCH HAPPIER!!!
[02/03/10 11:03:43 PM] Emma Tsui: omg lily
[02/03/10 11:03:44 PM] Emma Tsui: LOL LOL
[02/03/10 11:03:51 PM] Emma Tsui: u r not taking this serious at all
[02/03/10 11:03:51 PM] Emma Tsui: lol
[02/03/10 11:04:16 PM] Emma Tsui: i think he will find issues somehow from eating croissants
[02/03/10 11:04:24 PM] Emma Tsui: and french people dissing him
[02/03/10 11:04:36 PM] Emma Tsui: and be upset
[02/03/10 11:04:51 PM] Emma Tsui: and maybe buy a gun there and start shooting at paris
[02/03/10 11:04:55 PM] Emma Tsui: i dunno...
[02/03/10 11:05:00 PM] Lily Qiu: YOU PUT THAT IN YOUR FACEBOOK!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAAAHAHA you didn't put his name did you???? oh god
[02/03/10 11:05:02 PM] Lily Qiu: i'm such a bitch
[02/03/10 11:05:08 PM] Emma Tsui: LOL
[02/03/10 11:05:11 PM] Emma Tsui: i didnt put his name
[02/03/10 11:05:27 PM] Emma Tsui: this is one of my fav quote
[02/03/10 11:05:58 PM] Lily Qiu: HAHAHAHHA emma!!!! good, if somebody asks, don't you dare say i was talking about him, i would feel horrible!!!
[02/03/10 11:06:25 PM] Emma Tsui: now u feel horrible that was horrible but there is really not much we could do
[02/03/10 11:06:31 PM] Emma Tsui: nah i wont tell
[02/03/10 11:06:37 PM] Emma Tsui: but i think i'll tell blaire
[02/03/10 11:06:41 PM] Emma Tsui: she wont mind
[02/03/10 11:06:45 PM] Emma Tsui: can i tell blaire?
[02/03/10 11:06:53 PM] Lily Qiu: no, i don't feel horrible, i just feel bad that it's there for all the public's viewing, and that they will scrutinize me for being a bitch hahah
[02/03/10 11:06:54 PM] Lily Qiu: yeah go ahead
[02/03/10 11:07:02 PM] Emma Tsui: ok
[02/03/10 11:07:18 PM] Lily Qiu: just DON'T PUT HIS NAME ON FACEBOOK, that's all! i wouldn't want him to know we were talking about his when he's so down in the dumps right now
[02/03/10 11:07:27 PM] Emma Tsui: no but when people found out that we were talking about J they'd understand
[02/03/10 11:07:41 PM] Emma Tsui: i'm no that dumb
[02/03/10 11:07:46 PM] Emma Tsui: i wont put his name
[02/03/10 11:08:46 PM] Lily Qiu: hahaha okay yeesh
[02/03/10 11:08:48 PM] Lily Qiu: scared me for a bit
[02/03/10 11:09:01 PM] Lily Qiu: because this quote is very strange and people will most likely ask questions about it hahaha
[02/03/10 11:10:16 PM] Emma Tsui: nah i wont tell
[02/03/10 11:10:30 PM] Emma Tsui: other than blaire, ayesha, and katy, they'd understand
[02/03/10 11:10:48 PM] Emma Tsui: sometiems i just wanna bitch and yell at J for being the biggest whiney boy ever
[02/03/10 11:10:49 PM] Lily Qiu: ahhahahahah OK ok ok
[02/03/10 11:11:01 PM] Lily Qiu: he is a very mysterious and sensitive man
[02/03/10 11:11:04 PM] Emma Tsui: he is
[02/03/10 11:11:15 PM] Emma Tsui: i feel like he'd cry if he discusses about tiger woods
[02/03/10 11:11:16 PM] Lily Qiu: hahah i like this in depth analysis of J..
[02/03/10 11:11:24 PM] Lily Qiu: HAHAHHA MAYBE???
[02/03/10 11:11:40 PM] Emma Tsui: so i was thinking
[02/03/10 11:12:13 PM] Emma Tsui: if i do go up to him and tell him that i'm all worried that he might get a gun and start shooting like virginia tech because he seems like htat type to me
[02/03/10 11:12:28 PM] Emma Tsui: it might upset him even more eh?
[02/03/10 11:12:40 PM] Lily Qiu: UM YES EMMA I THINK HE WOULD
[02/03/10 11:12:42 PM] Emma Tsui: he might thinks that "shit, now people think i'm suicidal."
[02/03/10 11:12:46 PM] Lily Qiu: I STRONGLY ADVISE AGAINST THAT
[02/03/10 11:12:52 PM] Emma Tsui: LOL OKAY.............
[02/03/10 11:13:07 PM] Lily Qiu: i realize that i was a bit harsh in calling him a total puss puss, but still, i would never say it to his face
[02/03/10 11:13:20 PM] Lily Qiu: i would never say he should quit school and go eat delicious french pastries all day, to his face
[02/03/10 11:13:21 PM] Lily Qiu: hahahah
[02/03/10 11:13:24 PM] Emma Tsui: but liek what do i do? can i actually just.. ignore it?
[02/03/10 11:13:40 PM] Emma Tsui: hahahahahahaha
[02/03/10 11:13:59 PM] Emma Tsui: i've been laughing constantly my mom told me to shut up and stop being crazy
[02/03/10 11:14:07 PM] Lily Qiu: hahahahhahahaha
[02/03/10 11:14:45 PM] Emma Tsui: ok hmm.... i'll talk to ylber about it. see what he thinks it's best to do
[02/03/10 11:15:45 PM] Lily Qiu: i guess that would be a good idea
[02/03/10 11:15:50 PM] Lily Qiu: but really, this isn't new for us eh
[02/03/10 11:15:56 PM] Emma Tsui: no it's not
[02/03/10 11:16:04 PM] Emma Tsui: but what if one day he might actually do it
[02/03/10 11:16:06 PM] Emma Tsui: like u said
[02/03/10 11:16:12 PM] Emma Tsui: somehow grows all the balls
[02/03/10 11:16:13 PM] Lily Qiu: like he's done this before'i think he's just going through a tough patch, what with midterms marks all coming back around now
[02/03/10 11:16:25 PM] Emma Tsui: true..
[02/03/10 11:16:53 PM] Emma Tsui: but think differently, he might not be suicidal and all that
[02/03/10 11:17:03 PM] Emma Tsui: maybe it's sarcasim
[02/03/10 11:17:07 PM] Emma Tsui: i dunno...
[02/03/10 11:17:20 PM] Emma Tsui: i aint no physcology
[02/03/10 11:17:50 PM] Emma Tsui: omg ayesha just "likes" my status
[02/03/10 11:17:56 PM] Emma Tsui: i think she knows what we are talkign about
[02/03/10 11:17:58 PM] Emma Tsui: smart
[02/03/10 11:18:06 PM] Emma Tsui: intellegent ayesha
[02/03/10 11:18:07 PM] Lily Qiu: hahah it's a possibilty
[02/03/10 11:18:18 PM] Lily Qiu: ahhaah you talk about her like she's a cat
[02/03/10 11:18:23 PM] Emma Tsui: llol
[02/03/10 11:20:22 PM] Emma Tsui: ayesha confirmed to me that she knew we were talking about J
[02/03/10 11:20:35 PM] Emma Tsui: and then she "offline" me on msn
[02/03/10 11:20:42 PM] Emma Tsui: anwyays, go study child
[02/03/10 11:20:43 PM] Emma Tsui: tata
[02/03/10 11:20:47 PM] Lily Qiu: hhahahahha bye bye!!!

I'm Drunk, but this is what I think right now

I wasted my time in y 1st year looking for and believing in signs. It was the 2 cars that almost bumped into me half an hour before Leo die THAT MADE me believe in signs. Well.. for those that don't know how Leo die, he was hit by a car.
I just had a conversation with my friends about "signs" and "god". I said I believe in signs, but Matt said "signs are everywhere" and then after that sentence a short semi-deep speech was followed of which I'm not going to get into that, because I'm drunk and his speech was not my point in this blog entry. MY POINT IS THAT... (on the way home I thought about all the stupid action that I made because I believed in signs) I WASTED THIS WHOLE TIME LOOKING FOR AND BELIEVING IN SIGNS, and because of the conversation that took place earlier, the past years all made sense! I was looking for signs to guide me through my life and because I believed signs they were really, literally, EVERYWHERE. It did not help me with my life. It did not guide me at all because if it did I would still not be lost in university, or in life. However, it might also be that I'm not patient enough to wait for the signs to prove themselves... Right now, I'm not taking that into my consideration other than I wasted my time and energy, instead of believing in myself, in my thought, and in my power and ability.

"God". I've always thought that "god" is for the weaks, for the excuses, and for the stupidities. I was so confident when my life was going well. For now, I don't want to talk about my whole system of belief (in god). Obviously, now I have doubts, but I am still very strong on my thought. It's too much to talk about for my semi-drunk-asian brain. I just want to go to bed.

Last but not least, I got my one-way ticket back to vancouver. Yes, it is one-way ticket. Vancouver, I hear ya. I'm coming home. 6 more days, and my mom has no idea.

GOLD!

WE GOT GOLD!! bilodeau!!!
This is so awesome! and it would be more awesome if I was back home...
But whatever I am going to make this reading break all worth it.
I am gonna... read books. That is right! I am going to read.
- An Introduction To Game Theory, written by an economic professor at U of T, who is blaire`s friend`s dad :O
- And On Stranger Tides, because the next movie of Pirates of Caribbean is based on this noval and I just really got into the movie series.

AND!
I`m going to paint my washroom. ALL RED with 3 horizontal black stripes going across the walls.

AND!
I`m going to study hard on MAT223 of which the midterm is on the 25th, also the major reason why I couldn`t go back to vancouver during reading break.

AND!
I just found out that I need min. GPA 3.0 and a min. of 2 years of work experiences to apply for MBA. ugh! How do I get 2 years of work experiences? and min GPA 3.0 is not going to get me into MBA. You know it, I know it.

Well, that's it so far, I don't have much to say besides the fact that I'm in Robarts right now tired and sick. Gonna head back to my new condo and eat my new cheesecake and sleep.

Take care everyone,
Emster

We Are The World 25

I'm glad I donated to Haiti. (Even tho it was with my mom's credit card)

http://www.perezhilton.com/tv/We_Are_The_World_25/?ptvid=3670b91a26dee
Music is so strong.






And I just watched the opening ceremony of Vancouver 2010. Rick Hansen and Steve Nash pretty much made it all worth it to spend those long ass 3 hours watching crappy opening ceremony. I mean... at the end one of the 4 sticks didn't even work?!?! ugh! Nevertheless, I still want to be there.... it's my home mang... I miss Vancouver. Shane Blackie went back.... I suppose to go back too>:(

and I'm sick......

Normally I Don't Admit This But....

I'm just gonna be a bitch, admit this to myself, and not tell you what I finally admit.

p.s. how many people actually read my blog?

Shame On Me

Last week, my asthma came back. When I was a kid I had asthma till 12 years old. and now it's back. and it is really my own fault because I picked up smoking (since.... 2008 december. on and off). and tonight I rolled my ankle during a basketball game and tomorrow I have work at 5:30am. this month is just bad.... bad... bad month.

I'm just.. really tired.

I'm tired. I'm tired from being in toronto and all the stress this city gives. ∴ i miss west coast.. the fireworks, the view, the mountains, the water, my car, and the stree-free summer.

I'm tired. I'm tired from all the goals that I set for myself. That's why a lot of time I just want to quit school.

I'm tired. I'm tired from all the expectations from my very hardcore asian family.

I'm tired. I'm tired from working so much. I really shouldn't be but I don't know what to tell my boss.

I'm tired. I'm tired from keep pushing myself in academic.

I'm tired. I'm tired from crying inside. because if i cry outside then i'm just fucking too weak.

I'm tired. I'm tired from the stress this school gives to me.

I'm tired. I'm tired from being in the city.... I would rather be in a farm where I can grow one kind of fruit and make them into wine and still make shit load of money so I can afford a big house with big backyard in the countryside.

I'm tired. I'm tired from the weather.

I'm tired. I'm just... really tired.

I am FINALLY a day time person... sorta.

So after one solid year, I am finally a day time person!! I mean, I am able to wake up at around 9 AM by alarm clock, or even myself! After last week's self training, late to work and classes, even my boss has not been happy with me... I sleep at around 4am and wake up at 9am. I would feel really tired around noon but as soon as it pass 3pm, I would feel fine again and be able to attend classes and study after classes. This is awesome :) very awesome! good start in 2010.

BTW, I'm so closed to moving out of chinatown. That means I will achieve another new year resolution! Talked with my mama and worked out a deal. If my grades are up to 70% at the next eco100 midterm(which is 2 weeks, and i've been working on it) and math quiz, she will increase my budget and I will be moving out of chinatown! I'm currently seeing College Park Suites and Pantages Hotel. They are both really nice. I would like to live in Pantages Hotel but there is no patio, in the other had, College Park Suites has a bigger bachelor with a large patio and cheaper price... and closer to school. Pantages Hotel would be nice tho.. The bachelor condo is above Pantages Hotel but it is separated from the Hotel itself, should be really nice.

The Motivation For Me Is...

....'em fuckers telling me what I could not be.

fuck off.

Happy New Year With Happy New Year Resolutions

I stopped making new year resolutions for a while now, something like 4 years, because I realized I only achieved approximately half of my resolutions. But!! I did not make anything happen in those 4 years of no-resolution, so I just realized, in my shower, that I might as well start making my new year resolutions because achieving half of resolutions is better than no achieving anything at all.

So here it goes...

1) become a professional DJ, in the other word, make my name a bit bigger than it is right now. (this gotta happen in 2010!)

2) find a part-time job as a DJ wether in a club or stores, etc.

3) Create a DJ name suitable to me as this career goes..

4) Save more than $5,000

(I invested all my savings into my DJ equipments so now I'm starting with $0.. but good thing it's only January and I saved $1,400 so far.. from red pocket money and working)

5) STAY IN UNIVERSITY OF TORONTO

6) score perfect on either a quiz, a midterm, or a final

(this is optional I suppose... but try anyway)

7) No more major failures in my academic life

8) Do not find myself anymore bullshit. altho they did make me stronger.

9) No more animal dying in front of my eyes

10) Donate or be a volunteer of something, and I gotta try my best to find extra time and money

11) Convince my dad to buy me a condo........ (write a speech, a very convincing speech, get it done before I turn 20, and say it to him!)

12) Fix my car (this is probably not going to happen... ICBC insurance estimated the cost to fix my car is around $4,000. But whatever, try anyways.)

13) Do research on starting my own business with dad

14) Do research on real estate in Toronto, so I can... (see #11)(so get it done before I turn 20...)

15) Bring my brother to do volunteering for rescuing animals or cancer kids, either one.

16) Make sure my brother is doing volunteering on his own in a hospital, otherwise I am granted by myself to kick his ass. (I know I just put my brother on 2 of my resolutions but his goal is to get into med school but he doesn't know how hard it is, and he's a very weak boy... like I said, bullshit is blocked by my mom but she's only 1 person and there are 2 people: my brother and I)

17) Do better time management, in the other word, no more weird sleeping patterns.

18) this is going to be on the list of my future new year resolutions too... but, one day, I want to be able to say "Pappa I did it too!" while I look at my career.

19) Finally... move out of chinatown. Find a better place (on my own by myself would be extra nice, but if dad is convinced to buy me a condo.... I don't mind either).

hmm.. I should have 1 more to make it 20..

20) Fit "working out" and "practicing DJ" into my daily/weekly schedule along with "school", "study", and "work". In the other word, make this 5 things to be a daily/weekly routine

21) Find more time to call Grandpa, possibly the best man in this world.

screw making it to 20.. imma gonna make it to 25.. I got 12 months to achieve them, might as well make more.

22) Buy a new snowboard, or a just wax because I love my snowboard but it's cracking everywhere and scratching everywhere too...

23) Buy lotion, I made this because I can achieve this by tomorrow so I feel positive about my new year resolution, and that my skin is so dry it's cracking.

Did you make your resolution yet?